Update - Long boring post alert.

Hello,

Sort of going to put poker on the backburner for a while until i get my studies and general life back on track. Will need the gym happening, will need to be regularly going out with mates, i will need to make sure i don't get all obsessive compulsive about making loads out of money out of poker and really just neglecting the rest that life has to offer.

This sounds deep and meaningful but its not supposed to be. I sort of need to make poker become a secondary thing that supports a much better life that doesn't involve general sloth and inactivity. It is sort of a warning to myself that last year was basically exactly that and that really isn't what i want. I may also find if i start living a little bit more of a varied lifestyle it may reap benefits on my poker returns because i may be more relaxed.

This sounds too general to say lead a more balanced life but i really need to go against deep grained habits that have me play a lot more poker than i should be at the disadvantage of going out more. Eventually i will get a balance but i will need to see what exactly will work for me. Whenever i feel as if i am just residing back to poker day in day out, without a balance, i will give myself a slap and realise there is more to be had. It will probably mean i make more money so i would be silly not to go for it.

Unfortunately nothing to report on the poker front in terms of play besides me actually losing about £3000 over the xmas holidays because i played agitated and was sort of unable to accept losses when i should have! It is sort of why i am making this post. For me to be more stable against tilt and obsessing about how well i am playing, i need to not care as much about each session in a sort of worriesome manner.

For that to happen i need to first be always revising how the game is developing and feel comfortable with the ever changing dynamic always being one step ahead and secondly i need to have a developed life outside poker so the former is not the be all end all. With this formula achieved soon, if i don't turn consistent winnings on a bimonthly basis with the amount of volume i will be putting in i will probably see that taking poker as seriously as i have in terms of a career prospect was just silly and this would add even more impetus about me striving hard to get a wage job.

However for me to accept that i will really be pulling out all the stops to develop my game and my mentality towards it, and considering i have made tens of thousands already i know i have what it takes to win. So i will need to start developing all the qualities that had me winning regularly, a stable temperament, a comfort with the amount of tables being played and feeling a real sense of enjoyment. Adversely i will need to negate the damning qualities in my game. Mainly agitation due to the discomfort at how many tables i am playing, losing grasp of how certain tables are operating and making the wrong plays as a result and feeling a little clueless at times about what to do in marginal spots that are hard to judge. I mainly have to become quite obsessive in trying to make things as easy as possible and then reaping the rewards of such good preparation.

There is a difference between thinking and doing though, so it will be a test of me to go out and actually try to quell all the unease i have with the game and see what happens.

If you have read up to here fair play to you, i probably wouldn't have, cheers for reading and i will try to reward your support by posting up some more success stories!

Btw, thought i would put a picture up of a man juggling life, quite happy with the cheese aspect to this post now with that picture nicely reinforcing that!

Ant